🤮Word Vomit! 002🤮: Can Everyone Please Stop Telling Me "No"?

Rejection is not my drug of choice. I prefer marijuana.

Welcome to Spit It Out!’s weekly newsletter: Word Vomit! Because everything that goes in me ends up coming out in mush, but I sure do feel better after.

Yes ma’am you heard me right, every Thursday, y’all get updates, insights, and tidbits that inspire me. Everything I write is an amalgamation of these items floating and bumping into each other in my brain.

You pickin’ up what I’m puttin’ down? If not, that’s okay baby you’ll catch up. Let’s get into it.

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Today’s To Be Spewed

• Check In Prayer: Resilience

• Y’all WRITING writing

• I <3 Consuming

  1. What I’m reading: Milan Kundera - The Unbearable Lightness of Being (Still)

  2. What I’m Watching: The Bratz Series (2005)

  3. What I’m Listening to: The Temptations - Shakey Ground

  4. What I’m Eating/drinking: At home dim sum

• Craziest Shit I Seen This Week: Stoner Cats

• Lessons Learned This Week: Keep it pushin’ baby

• Try This (Random Skill Share): Wall hanging glasses holder

🤮Check In Prayer🤮

Dear God, Universe, or whatever the fuck you is I am praying for RESILIENCE today. Like…I need it now. In the face of continual rejection over this last month I need to be filled to the brim like a build-a-bear with the courage and strength to continue. The people round me not really holding me up how I need (my fault fr, I’m not even asking). Feeling like an orphaned child in these romantic streets, left for dead with no explanation. Funding, fellowships, freelance opportunities getting…

I have no wish to crumble under the weight of refusal. Opportunity is a game of time and I’m praying for the blessing of patience to be bestowed in me. Oh God, you know I’m one short rejection email away from punching a hole in my wall. I know the other side of dismissal is bright and I will do my part to continue. In the name of all that is mighty and might keep me from calling my roommates dirty stank musty boyfriend what he is to his face, Amen.

🤮Y’all WRITING writing🤮

This week’s Substack Shoutouts

Dia Lupo

Seeing as all I’m trying to do is visualize myself in the future with some parts of my inevitable succes — manifestation purrr — Dia Lupo’s last post is what I needed. Yeah, she is essentially lamenting her time spent as a human advertisement, but I appreciate a look into the journey that brought her to the now.

I was a writer and an influencer. I am still a writer.

Inigo Laguda

Inigo use big word but easy understand. :)

This first time I read an essay by Inigo I said “oh he one a dem big brain muhfuckahs” and he refuses to prove me wrong. Inigo’s takes feel like he grabbed the right neurons in my brain and put them together to make advanced synapses. All the understanding, none of the work to get there. Here’s my favorite piece of his “mammy robotics inc.”

mammy robotics inc.

Kujo Saki

My baby boop from the Postcolonial studies program I just finished. I’ve never known a person who’s voice naturally reaches a higher decibel than his. Don’t worry he just writes words on his publication, he can’t hurt you through the screen. Instead he’ll lull you into emotional depths of mutual understanding. His work is an out-stretched arm ready to receive you in some of the most difficult of times.

All I’ve Been Seeing is Grey

🤮I <3 Consumption🤮

What I’m Reading

Milan Kundera - The Unbearable Lightness of Being (Still)

I was gonna lie and say I finished the book because it’s the same as last week, but I’m evolving.

The book follows two very adulterous marriages during Russia’s occupation of Czechoslovakia in the late 1960s. The thing is fucking FULL of philosophical bangers. I didn’t expect it from a white man but to be fair he is Eastern European, they got some grit in’em. Here’s one of my favorites:

“The only thing [the Czech emigrants to New York] were all able to understand was the flames, the glory of the ashes, so for them the essence of being Czech came down to ashes and nothing more. The only things that held them together were their defeats and the reproaches they addressed to one another.”

What I’m Watching

The Bratz Series (2005)

The animation is ass. Nothing has any detail except the Bratz luscious locks. The storyline feels like it was written by an optomistic middle schooler that reads too much J-14 Magazine, the lessons are santized of any meaning. But the outfits are absolutely inspirational. They ate the wardrobe up baby.

Pro tip: Try journalling about abundance to a nice playlist and muted Bratz visuals in the background.

What I’m Listening To

The Temptations - “Shakey Ground”

I just learned how to slap bass and now it is all that can think about. All day long I fantasize about the vibration of a thick stainless steel string against my thumb, followed by the most obnoxious pluck of the same note’s octave high sibling. I CRAVE it.

What I’m Eating/Drinking

Cheffing up dim sum at home mmmmhhmm 😋.

Whenever I get drunk with my bestie this is my favorite thing to do. We go to the Asian shop down the road, get all the joints we need plus some and throw down.

Left to Right: Pork soup dumplings, bok choi and enoki mushrooms, beef and chive dumplings, spicy rice cakes, soy sesame sauce, chicken thigh buns and bbq pork buns.

🤮Craziest Shit I Seen This Week🤮

Y’all Heard of “Stoner Cats”?

Mila Kunis produced a animated series funded by the cryptocurrency Ethereum about 5 stoner cats that learn lessons while working to protect their elderly stoner woman owner.

It stars Ashton Kutcher, Chris Rock, Jane Fonda, Mila Kunis, Seth McFarlane, Vitalik Buterin. Wild. What’s event wilder is you can only watch it if you buy an Etherium backed NFT of a character…for the equivalent of $800.

Yeah, so here’s the link to watch it on YouTube.

🤮Lesson Learned This Week🤮

Keep It Pushin’ Baby

To me, every obstacle is a mountain.

I know it’s annoying af to deal with, but imagine being me bitch. After I solve every problem — okay that wasn’t really that bad was it? — I come back to my body and realize I may have *slightly* over reacted.

I’m tired of dealing with this in the aftermath. This week, I decided to work toward identifying my spirals a bit earlier. Once I’ve done that I take these steps:

1. telling someone my feelings

2. allowing them to console me

3. confidently moving into a solution based in the conversations I’ve had

Very simple (that’s what I need to tell myself so I quit the process). It’s true. There is another side to every obstacle I face. More time’s than not, if I allow myself to see the obstacle, feel my emotions and begin to create a solution, it’s just not that big of a deal in the end.

Get over yourself, keep it pushin’ baby.

🤮Try This (Random Skill Share)🤮

Wall Hanging Glasses Holder

One thing about me, Imma wear a nice pair of glasses. I own 7 pairs of prescription glasses, 4 of which I wear regularly. I one day hope to have a collection spanning the hundreds with the ultimate goal of learning to make frames myself. I <3 glasses frfr.

To show them off I placed a tightly knit blanket on the wall for display. They’re easily accessible and I can see my options for every fit. Plus it adds extra warmth to these cracked up white British walls.

Sunglasses not prescription

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That’s Spit It Out!’s Weekly News Letter “Word Vomit!”

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