🤮Word Vomit! 005🤮: Oh God, Another Pivot

This might be a "see you later" for Word Vomit!

This week’s newsletter is a bit different and could be the last for a while…but that’s because I’m working on something new and exciting! >:)

Let’s get into it shall we?

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Today’s To Be Spewed (We’re keeping it short and sweet).

• Check In Prayer: Show me I have what it takes.

• Y’all WRITING writing

• Craziest Shit I Seen This Week: Self Doubt

• Lessons Learned This Week: The only way to do it is to do it.

🤮Check In Prayer🤮

Today I come is the haziness of anxiety. I lost grip with reality as my palms continue to moisten from my shuttering nervous system.

I am asking for clarity, a vision of sorts. One that reveals my ability to achieve everything I fear I may fail. It sounds silly when I read it from a voice detached from my own, my friend laughed in my face when I told her this is how I felt. I get it.

I’m actually being serious though. It’s hard believing in a future that erected itself in a dream. I can’t tell if it was a “night time REM” dream or a “this is what I care about and am passionate to pursue” dream. Nonetheless I must treat it as the latter.

But all powerful being you know what would clarify this? A good ole fashion sign from you. Yeah gone head and drop one-a-dem real quick cause I’m at the point where I cry in the shower so I don’t have to worry about wiping it away. Ermmmm yeah.

Only reason I’m able to request something like this is because of the gratitude I hold for everything else I have in my life. Shoutout to forces inside and outside of me allowing me to be exactly where I am. It’s just that I need a likkle boost right now…Damn “likkle” I been in London for a while ain’t it?

In the name of everything great and powerful.

Amen.

🤮Y’all WRITING writing🤮

This week’s Substack shoutout (only one cause I been busy cooking up ideas).

Melody Smith

In a time of need I looked for support from my lovely subscribers for a light-hearted read that might get my mind away from the dark space it was inhabiting. Melody came to save the day with this fantastic read. Based in her love for chicken wings she said she WILL judge your wing eating habits and laid out the criteria. I couldn’t agree more. 10/10.

The Chicken Wing Test

🤮Craziest Shit I Seen This Week🤮

Self doubt. I HATE that insecure wannabe bitch self doubt. I put in all the work to do amazing things and here come self doubt tryna stop me. Jealous hoe. Realized I have to work with her instead of pushing against. Now I ask questions like “what exactly am I doubtful of?” or “How can I work to show that this self doubt is irrationally created rather than logically validated?”

🤮Lesson Learned This Week🤮

The only way to do it is to do it. I have wracked my head with plan after plan after plan on how to accomplish many projects that I have not accomplished. The result is me frustrated asking myself why I can’t get anything done. Then I tell myself I can’t accomplish anything when I really haven’t made a solid attempt. Oop, accidental self-read.

I am pushing myself to do it. Simple. Complete the thing. Place it out. Do it again. That’s what has got to happen, thus it’s what I’ll do. With grace and kindness to myself of course.

- Carma <3

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That’s that on that!

Thank you for reading this fourth edition of “Word Vomit!” I am so blessed to have each one of you here. You’re all beautiful and your ass is fat!

This may be the last time you hear from me on Word Vomit! specifically for a bit but it’s because you’ll be getting a fresh new series soon. What could it beeeee?

Go back and read the last four editions of “Word Vomit!”

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